Yes, I am being a bit lazy here. Too much corporate work, worries about administrative matters and physical exhaustion to write anything new. Instead, I am offering you a ‘reject’: something I prepared earlier, but which didn’t quite make the grade.
You know the expression: kill your darlings (when it comes to writing). Here are some bits and pieces which have been trimmed away from the WIP. Melinda is the main protagonist; Graham is her husband. Below are pictures of how I imagine them in my head.
Graham got home at around nine every evening. He didn’t want any supper; he was careful to keep his figure trim, aware of his beer belly getting ready to pounce. So she would eat the remains of the children’s meal herself, while he set up his laptop on the dining table. Still some work to catch up on, a few emails to send, a call or two to make. It was all she could to do get a ‘Hmmm, really, I see…’ out of him when she told him about her day.
Sometimes they wouldn’t talk for days. She’d droop off well before ten and go to bed. She was fast asleep when he slipped in beside her. She always fell asleep before she could read 2-3 pages, no matter how exciting the novel might be. Meanwhile, he needed time to decompress, he said, so he watched some satellite TV. In English of course, so everything was an hour behind.
When she woke up at 4 a.m., as she often did, and started worrying about the forms, the To Do lists, her own inadequacies, he was always lying on his back, his arms up beside him with fists clenched, like a baby. A clear conscience, obviously. Sometimes a little snore or occupying more than his half of the bed. She would sigh and creep to the very edge. Or get up and go to the children’s rooms, listen to their soft, sweet breathing and tell herself it was all worth it for them.
In the morning, she struggled to come out of that brief tangle of sleep to which she had finally succumbed. The early start was always far too early, getting the children ready for school, while Graham slept on. And so, with no fuss or awkward rejection on either side, their sex life had dwindled to nothing. Melinda suspected it wasn’t just her who was secretly relieved.
Other things too began to slip. The lazy Sundays in bed, with the children piling in with them. Graham was too tired now, needed to sleep longer, so she would be forever shushing them when they got too excited in their games of make-believe or else take them downstairs and plonk them in front of the TV. Their weekly ritual of ‘lunch at Daddy’s office’ also disappeared, because Daddy had more and more meetings on a Wednesday, the only day when they didn’t have school and had sufficient time to go to the centre of Geneva. After a while, it was no longer much of a day out for them anyway, the food was always bland and they had seen all of the museums that were suitable for children.
Even the family days out that had been the highlight of their week tailed off to nothing. Graham said he was too exhausted from his constant travels. He just wanted to stay at home and relax at the weekend, and she could understand that, she really could.
In the end, Melinda reflected, very little communication is required to keep a household running smoothly. Appointments were made and kept, bills paid with few delays, children picked up and dropped off with the right equipment in the right place at the right time. Food was prepared and ingurgitated, or not. The house was cleaned with the help of a Brazilian woman who came for two hours every week, spoke neither English nor French, and ignored Melinda’s sign language instructions, cleaning whatever she most felt like, rather than what needed doing. Melinda had to pick her up from the bus stop at the Val Thoiry shopping centre, but at least she didn’t demand the exorbitant rates of more professional, car-driving, trilingual cleaners who paid their taxes.
So it went on. Melinda clung to each thread of a routine, grateful that it gave her a reason to get up in the morning. Often, after dropping the children off, she would return to the house with a sinking heart, knowing that Graham would still be around. With shower and breakfast to negotiate, and perhaps an email or two to check, he was never very chatty in the morning.
When he finally left the house, after issuing her with a pile of instructions on what he needed done that day or later that week, she could breathe a huge sigh of relief and make herself a cup of coffee. But it was downhill from there.
No matter how sunny the day, no matter how magnificent the view of Mont Blanc and its Alpine sisters, Melinda felt a dull despondency settling on her. She might crawl back into bed, sobbing for no reason, and find herself at school pick-up time with not much to show at all for her day. At other times she would be lickety-split quick about cooking, wiping kitchen surfaces, doing the laundry in the morning, only to collapse in the afternoon and find herself staring into nothingness, repeating: ‘I can’t take it anymore! I can’t take it anymore!’
10 thoughts on “Dead Darling (Fragment of WIP)”
Seems a bit too good for the reject pile to me. Hope you’ll be feeling a little less harried soon, Marina. It sounds as if your plate’s overflowing.
It’s all back story. I need to find ways to incorporate it into the story, whilst moving it forward. Ah, at least these ‘technical’ things keep my mind focused on happier things than the world or admin stuff.
I’m taking a Curtis Brown novel writing course and feel a bit low (acceptances notwithstanding) at the moment. It’s good to see what it takes to write a bestseller, a bit disheartening too.
You’re on your way. Trimming, trimming, trimming. If good bits like these go, the the rest must be shinig. I like the last one. Too bad it’s a dead darling.
A couple of my acquaintances here in Geneva did a Curtis Brown course and have been progressing beautifully – so don’t get discouraged!
I do like this insight into Graham and Melinda’s characters, Marina Sofia – very much! I know what you mean about trimming; still, you’ve created some fascinating people here, and a solid setup. I want to know what happens to them.
I like the idea of putting your dead darlings somewhere! I hope that your busy life gets calmer soon enough!
Hmmm…very intriguing. I see you’ve don’t the casting for the film already!
Graham seems like an ideal candidate to be murder victim 1 – at least, he did till I saw the pics. Now I think he should probably be allowed to survive a little longer…
Ha, ha, ha, yes, he deserves a good strangling… No, he’s not going to be the victim. More of a villain, I think.
It’s a disciplined writer that can kill her darlings… good that you store them, even when they don’t make the final cut! I think going through the process of expanding your characters then trimming them back helps make rounded characters… it might not all be there on the page for the reader but is very visceral in the sense of the unsaid, reading between the lines…
I’m playing with 3 potential key characters from my WIP at the moment … incorporating them into my fortnightly writing group prompts. The small escapades & vignettes they find themselves in almost certainly won’t make the finished story but somehow each provides something… even just an unexpected nuance or turn of phrase.
Looking forward to hearing more about Melinda…. x