It was poignant and entirely appropriate to dwell in the poetry pamphlet To Sweeten Bitter by Raymond Antrobus on Father’s Day (published by Outspoken Press). For this is a very personal exploration of the father/son relationship, a more ambiguous one than we are used to reading about in the standard gushing outbursts of sentiment on this day.
Then, waking up to yet more tragic news, this time about a terrorist attack on Muslims in London, this slim volume of poetry remains appropriate, for it has a resonance well beyond the personal. This is also poetry about finding one’s cultural identity, about trying to belong and being found wanting, about never quite fitting in, never knowing how to describe one’s self, trying to come to terms with one’s heritage.
Half-caste, half mule, house slave – Jamaican British.
Light skin, straight male, privileged – Jamaican British…
In school I fought a boy in the lunch hall – Jamaican.
At home, told Dad I hate dem, all dem Jamaicans – I’m British.
He laughed, said you cannot love sugar and hate your sweetness…
In Look, There’s a Black Man, Touch Him the poet captures not only his father’s experience of coming to England, but touches on broader issues of immigration and race, people ‘turn me away for showing up the wrong colour’. The men in Scratched Light miss their home and communities, struggle to share their bewilderment and loneliness with others who have been displaced, perhaps even build a transient community of the lost and grieving in the shadow of the Southbank security guards. Not all of the poems are wistful, however. There is humour but also drama and menace in Miami Airport, with the staccato questioning by the border guards: ‘why didn’t I see anyone that looked like you when I was in England?’
Yet when the Jamaican British son returns to the land of his father, he feels just as unsettled and unwanted. He tries to shake off the tourist image. He falls for the misguided idea that following roads marked on a map (with ridiculous English names) will help in Jamaica, where ‘the road itself rebelled and gave up making way for those who’ve forgotten what swung in this wind’. The guilt of the Empire is even stronger in the more overtly political poem Two Days and Two Nights in Kisumu, Kenya, where the poet has gone to teach poetry but fears that English is not the right language with which to approach these children for
our language has not come from the future,
it has crawled from a cave
and rowed to so many shores
that we speak in crashed waves and trade winds.
Ultimately, however, the personal poems are the most powerful in this anything but straightforward account of a father’s legacy, a father lost to dementia quite a few years before death. The collection starts and ends on the hospital bed, with a heart giving out, a son holding hands with a father who has not always been there for him, trying to find forgiveness in his heart. This is a recognisable situation for so many, that there is a danger of reverting to hackneyed sentiments, but Antrobus injects freshness and real grittiness into it. Dementia ‘simplified a complicated man’, confers warmth where perhaps there was none initially. Sometimes the expression of pain is uncomplicated, as in the simple but not at all simplistic short poem When He Died:
I told no one
how old he was
More often, there are complicated and contradictory strands of feeling woven in. The title poem To Sweeten Bitter describes the paradox lying at the very heart of this relationship, the deeper grooves a father makes in our lives, the years of hurt and misunderstanding and the attempt to sugarcoat situations. The later poems are clearer in describing an absent father, an abusive father, the threats and shaming he stooped to, that forgiveness was only possible because ‘he promised me one day he was going to die.’ There is also recognition of a mother’s sacrifice, compensating for an absent father. In What Is Possible, we find the touching image of her sitting up all night to thread jewellery to sell in the market, with only the TV for company, while her son complains about the TV disturbing him. Yet as he lies in his bed, he dreams he will fly and grow too big for his bed, he understands the safety and security that his mother has given him, the feeling that all possibilities are still open to him.
The video below is the poet performing his own Sestina for My Father, which is not in the present volume, but deserves to be mentioned alongside it.
Yet this slender book reminds us that, for all the imperfections, for all of the pain, instead of yearning for the father we wish we’d had, we should attempt to understand and forgive the one we were given. Whether present or absent, they shape us far more than we can imagine or accept
where someone I love is the shape
of the missing thing.
17 thoughts on “Raymond Antrobus: To Sweeten Bitter (poetry review)”
One day, I’ll try poetry (reading not writing). One day…
In small, easy gulps, like medicine. And you might grow to like it. There’s poetry for all tastes.
I even own ONE book of “poetry”. And have read it. A mixture of “Poems written before jumping out of an 8 story building” and of other poetic works by C.B.
This sounds like a really powerful exploration of the father/son dynamic, as well as the father’s character. I can see how it had an impact on you, Marina Sofia. I like the way Antrobus explores different issues through that same lens, too.
A whole world addressed in such a short volume. Have to learn the art of conciseness myself.
Such a poignant and evocative collection of poetry. The title of the poem “Look, There’s a Black Man, Touch Him” alone would be enough. It has such depth, that no verse is necessary.
Isn’t it just perfect? Deceptively simple, but makes you ponder long after you finish reading. As all good poetry should. Or prose, for that matter.
Sometimes we read a book at just the right time to chime into the times, don’t we? I am reading a new poet at the moment, and your advice is definitely right – the small gulps of it are proving quite wonderful.
It’s hard to read a full collection in one go, as it addresses many themes and it’s near impossible to be on the exact wavelength as the poet throughout. Every time I go back to a volume of poetry, I find different poems resonate with me.
Oh how beautiful and moving these are. Thanks for sharing about this collection!
This sounds excellent Marina Sofia and I don’t know this poet at all. Thanks for bringing him to my attention!